Someone Else Can Come Save Me From Myself

How do you deal with it when everything that could possibly go out of hand actually does? And it all happens at a very wrong time indeed. I feel like a car losing control and headed for a crash, so physically and mentally drained to an extent that even I, myself find ridiculous because it doesn't really have to be this way, right?

It's really just a question of how I can let some people affect me at times and how some people just don't. Like what a friend said, the perfect answer is balance. But it seems easier said than done, because when something like this comes along and I start being someone who is not really myself anymore, I begin to dread waking up every single morning.

My days are beginning to sound routine and I get so absorbed into it that I tend to forget why I said or did the things I did. Work has been pretty hectic, coupled with the reports and templates and the loss of a normal social life. It doesn't help that I feel as if I'm drifting very far away from the very people that keep me grounded and who would listen to my paranoid thoughts and give me sound advice.

I feel this sudden urgent need to get in contact with someone like a close friend or something, talk and feel real about everything that's going on, instead of going home every evening and stand, faced with all that I have to do tomorrow. The weekend is not gonna be of much help either, and working excessively overtime may prove to be therapeutic.. I guess.