yesterday, i went to orchard after class to meet my mom and my aunt for dinner and we had korean. aww. why do i feel so blessed?

and i was waiting at the mrt station for my mom when this guy walked past me and he was in this unbuttoned leather jacket, with no shirt ok? and i was like, "what the. only Rain can carry that off nicely ok." lol.

anyway, i got to stay at home today cause it's Open House and lab was cancelled. and of course, i got to sleep in today. i was planning to meet a friend but then she got grounded. so you can imagine me sitting dazed in front of my computer the whole day. i'm too lazy to do anything academic-related, you see. and i was gonna watch the korean drama that Jodie lent me the other day. but that didnt hit me until now; is it too late ah?

so, i was watching the channel 5, channel 8 and channel u news just now. and i never tune in to all the channels' news on one night. and i didnt know watching news was such a heartbreaking thing to do. no wonder i never tune in to news ok. the news segments had Rain arriving at around 11.30pm last night and his press conference, interview, etc. and what was i doing at 11.30pm last night? Prison Break at home. Not at the airport ok? And i'm not going to the concert on Sunday either ok? And at 8pm this Sunday, i'm just gonna sit there and sulk. i'm so disappointed, watching him on the teevee screen, saying "hi. i'll see you on Sunday. thank you.", like as if he is really gonna see me. BUT. I'M. NOT. GOING.

but i must say, i've never seen him look that real, like he actually is right in front of my teevee, or maybe it's the fact that he's in Singapore now. i dont know. but i really believe he exists now. aww. it's just that, on the internet and in korean dramas, he just doesn't feel or look real to me. i dont know. haha. i dont even know when i turned into some sort of a screamy-shrieking-teenybopper-whenever-i-see-my-idol's-face but this Korean dude with small slitty eyes and that mischievious smile did THAT to me. Dammit, that's so NOT me right.

so i'm hoping my mom was pondering at my disappointed face staring at the teevee screen just now and after more pondering, she'll happily like thrust $400 or smth into my hands tomorrow morning and tell me to run down to Sistic and say "go see Rain. i know you'll be happier that way." and then i would run down to my nearest Sistic in just my pajamas cause i'm too elated to even change and tell the Sistic agent "can i have a $388 Rain's concert ticket please?" and probably grumble that my mom didnt thrust the money to me earlier or i could have gotten a $488 ticket that would bring me closer to the stage and probably touch Rain. but i'll be happy enough, to then remember i'm in my pajamas, mind my image and hurry run back home before counting down the hours to when i can finally see Rain.

i had to stop writing or i would have imagined myself all the way at the Indoor Stadium on Sunday night and watching Rain perform and probably catch his sweaty towel to take home. all that sounds a little far-fetched. my mom really isn't gonna start by thrusting $400 for me to blindly spend it and tell me all that bullshit about me being happy. or maybe, she would. if i just wish hard enough, it might come true! haha.

well, we'll see tomorrow. or you can always catch me sulking at home on Sunday night.