"Hello. Good morning. How you do?
What makes your rising sun so new?
I could use a fresh beginning too.
All of my regrets are nothing new.
So this is the way that I say I need you.
This is the way;
This is the way that I'm learning to breathe."

somedays, i think i let people hit me down too often. i get so upset with them when i really should be more upset with myself. why does something you say mean so much to me all the time? i really should take things easy instead of trying so hard to defend myself against what you say about me. it's funny how a line of your words can run me down so bad.

the day didnt start out so good today. it was cold and i felt better in bed; maybe i should have just stayed in bed instead of heading to school for an hour just to count microbes. somebody seemed to be in a utterly bad mood and picked on me while i was the only one from my group present. oh well, no jenna, valli or saddiq to help me. i should have just stuck that person's head under the penetrometer that i was trying to use and kill her or something instead of trying to explain my way out of the whole situation. and i actually wonder if my other classmates who were there actually saw the humiliation i was going through.

ANYWAY, damn you. whoever i am talking about. damn you both. you killed my mood for the day. and i shouldn't let you run me down again if there's a "next time".

reports are taking up my entire weekend and there are three more quizzes to come in the next week. give me a reason why i shouldn't hate school. except the fact that friends are there to always cheer you up when you're down. thanks to stephanie, caleen and yinglong for having lunch with me on thursday. cause i actually had no else to go lunch with since everyone was skipping lecture and going homw. thank god you guys made me laugh or i would sulk through the whole day, thinking somebody hates me.

and there's yanfen, who's such a sweetheart. she wanted to pass me a poster of RAIN that she had bought in a magazine on wednesday. but she couldn't remember where she left it at home. i had almost forgot about it until she reminded me on thursday and said, "oh, do u still want your poster?" and then she passed me this brand new copy of this month's TEENAGE and told me my poster is inside. then i realised that because she couldn't find the poster at home and thought i'll be disappointed if she didnt bring it so she went to buy me another copy! okay, tell me, what kinda friends do that for you? it's so sweet of her! i really should treat her soon. i felt so bad and wanted to return her the $3 but she declined. AWW. i can't say enough "THANK YOU"s to her for being so thoughtful (:

so, i'm back home and not sulking anymore whenever i think of things like that my friends do for me. you have no idea how much i miss AA22. SG, hurry go get a chalet during the vacation so AA22 can like have a reunion or something. haha. good times.